Thursday, April 28, 2005

Reality Bites...

It's amazing when you sit back and you think you've got everything together, things are going smooth, you're cruising along and then...

Reality hits.

I get a phone call last night from my friend. She tells me she went out with some friends for dinner to celebrate a birthday. One of them she used to work with. Her friend then proceeds reads her the Riot Act about you're not supposed to get involved with customers...blah, blah. Of course she knew this anyway, but I think it really scared her. I know it scared her because I could tell in her voice. It might not be that bad, but her friend does still know people in the HR Dept of my her work.

Well, there you have it.

You would hope that she would be happy for her and just tell her to have fun, but she has to go and drop that bomb. I really don't know this person and I don't know if she's that vindictive to slip some kind of hint to people that could get her fired. I would hope that she's a better friend than that, but I have this sneaky suspicion it's not the case.

I mean, would you tell your friend something like this if you knew she was happy? I've talked about the whole True Friend thing before and by what she told me, that's not one. You tell your friends to be happy, be careful, but you don't do what she did. I would really hope that this puts things in perspective with her friend. I'm sure it did.

I can't have her lose her job, but I don't know if I want to give up on this because of her job. She's the income for the household so there is no way I can let anything happen to jeopardize her situation.

Today she's leaving for her vacation. I told her last night not to worry about it, but I know she's thinking about it as we speak. I can't have her lose her job, but I don't want to lose her. I know I don't. We'll talk much more about everything when she comes back. Things might be a lot clearer then. Who knows.

Whatever happens, happens.

Can we be friends? Oh yeah, sure.

Do I want more? Need I say more?

Reality bites, doesn't it?

I was thinking that I could wait it out for the job I wanted here in town. Guess I need to get my plan back it order. This could be a long weekend for me.

Fuck it.

Sometimes you do what you have to do to make yourself happy.


Sitting Buddy said...

It's too bad that someone feels the need to derail your happiness. Don't give up on it. Sometimes people do/say hurtful things because they have a hidden agenda (more often than not it's jealously of other people's happiness). I haven't heard you this happy in a long time, so don't give up on it. Just be discreet and keep it quiet. Two people at my office who work in the offices NEXT TO each other dated for months before telling anyone, and another couple here got married. So it's not impossible to balance this. Just keep it all very private. You will find a way to make it work.

Alexa said...

You definitely got to keep it private. You should only bring it out if you two plan on marrying.