It's been a long week here at the Staden household.
K and I decided to end our relationship this week. I went down to Tampa Wednesday night and we talked and it's best that we end it at this time. With the pressures of school and traveling it's just not good for us to be together in a relationship. We're still going to talk and I know that we're going to remain very good friends, but in the long run we both want each other to be happy and right now we're not. I still love her very much and I know she loves me. Wednesday night was very hard and there was a lot of love in that room, but I know that we can put ourselves in a better position by doing this. I don't rule out us getting back together but only God and time will tell on that.
I was up talking to a good friend last night. Through our conversations talking about the merits of iPod versus Zune and other things we started talked about everything that happened. Through our discussions my friend made a very good observation....in the end God has an ironic sense of humor but everything happens for a reason. I don't know what the future holds for K and I, but I know she is and always will be a part of my life. I love her dearly.
Most of you that know I have a MySpace page and everyday I place up a Daily Motivator. Yesterday's message ran so clean it's given me focus so I thought I would share it here:
When your world seems frustrating, keep in mind that the most important part of you exists beyond those frustrations. When life feels painful, never forget that the pain, however difficult it may be, is confined to just a small portion of who you truly are.
All around you are things you can see and touch and physically manipulate. They are part of life, but they are by no means all there is.
You cannot hold love in your hand, and yet you know for certain that it exists. You cannot capture joy in a box or an envelope and yet you have no doubt that it is real.
When the outward concerns of life seem to be overwhelming, remind yourself, there's more. There is so very much more to living and being than those things you can see and hear, taste and smell, touch and possess.
Even those losses and disappointments that feel big and burdensome, are small in comparison to all the beautiful, positive possibilities living within you. Look beyond the noisy, superficial distractions and remember the miracle of your existence.
Live your life around the values in your heart. And those everyday pains and nuisances will lose their power to bring you down.
I know that love exists and I know Joy is real. I've experienced it.
Anyway, if you don't mind I'm not going to tell the story over and over so this is probably all I'm going to comment about it. Maybe sometime later I'll talk again but not right now.
I love you all...especially K.
And she just called. She said on today's date Milton, my hometown, was founded in 1844...she thought I should know.
Peace, Love and Thick Blankets